Wow....life has changed alot.

I hardly get on this damn thing anymore…all the friends I use to be so close to, I don’t even see anymore. Besides the terrible loss of those I use to hold so dear to me.. I think Im doing a lot better.

I’VE BEEN OFF COKE FOR A YEAR AND A MONTH!!!!!!!

I am soooooo proud of that!

Another important announcement (to me any way)

I AM DATING STONEY!!!

I know Stoney is kinda hard but what can I say I like him a lot and he makes me laugh.

O my what is this strange feeling???

My god…. I AM HAPPY?!

never me...

never you...

I'M WATCHIING YOU 

So im back from Denver..i was gone for like 3 weeks. i had fun for the most part. its funny how life can be, its like when ever things start to get good in life..it all gets taken away.  why is it that im not allowed to be happy? why must everyone leave me? or use me? or hurt me? im tired of it..im tired of everything...

how could you do this to me? after everything i have done for you...after all ive risked for you...and you just used me....ive known you for years, i actually fucking trusted you....you were my bestfriend....you ass hole...you will never even read this..

its a waste of time

so i dont know...

life is so boreing sometimes.....

i never thought things were going to be like this....

things have changed so much, some for better, some for worse......

HOW IS IT GOING TO END???

who knows

so this week has really fucking suxed!!!   this monday was the one year since my daddy Killed himself......so its been really hard on me..yeah.....i miss him so much...but i guess life goes on........  

at least for some of us

REST IN PEACE

ANDRES RENE RODRIGUEZ

JULY 2, 1964 -MAY 8, 2005

" WHAT A LIFE TO TAKE, WHAT I BOND TO BREAK."

WE MISS YOU DADDY